When you don’t know where to turn because your emotions run rampant and your body refuses to cooperate with what your brain wants to accomplish, you have to make a choice. This is were the fact that advice is much easier to give than it is to take and apply to your life. Learning about being empathic, I struggle with the overwhelming emotions going through my mind and body as I truly try to understand all the signs I am being given. I have always been the one who has put others before myself, making sure their feelings and emotions are always on a higher level no matter how mine would feel. I have felt the illnesses of others in my own body at the same time they were dealing with it. I have also had dreams which have predicted family pregnancies, as well, as death. Not as explicit as who exactly is going to be pregnant but maybe I just don’t have the talent to interpret what I am seeing. Last night I had a dream about a tiger biting at my hands and trying to attack me yet I prevailed and got away. I was watching the news this morning to see a clip about a zookeeper who was attacked by a tiger yesterday. The hardest part is the fatigue of my body. Presently I struggle to move, think and stay connected.
I know there is all kinds of advice and knowledge I can pursue about this. My migraines rage at this point only offering more pain and fatigue and symptoms to my body. At times I am almost afraid to stop and just think, I am not sure I want to hear what is going to go through my brain. So I don’t know where to turn and I will do something I am familiar with from my early migraine stages, shut down, withdraw and become quiet allowing words of paper to be my outlet. Words which I hope will make sense to me at some point in this never ending journey of life.
migraine musings 